A friend from the (on-hold) choir called me today. She is dismayed and disappointed at my disappearance, since they are working hard on getting moved to an accessible location by next week. Why would I quit just as they’re about to Do The Right Thing? Why am I taking one person’s objections personally, especially since they’re not being heeded by the group?
She’s right, but I’m depressed and tired and I feel guilty and I don’t want to be the Poster Girl for this.
But if I didn’t want to be the Poster Girl, why did I start this and get everybody riled up?
It’s not About Katja, my friend agrees, it’s about Doing The Right Thing. But it still looks bad.
Can I just be excused for the next couple of months? Or do I have to put my game face on and go back (which I can’t do, because the new choir rehearses the same day)?