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Chionophobia

I love shovelling snow.

I have never been fond of exercise; any periods of physical fitness I’ve enjoyed have been accidents of circumstance. For a while I pumped iron, dutifully. I’ve walked, dutifully. But I love shovelling snow.

One midnight, after a twenty-four inch snowfall and an argument with my husband, I shovelled for hours under the stars – it was beautiful. Calm, quiet and cold, the shovel crunching against the pavement, foot after foot of sidewalk yielding to my efforts. I felt strong, purposeful, effective.

Just managing daily life in snow used to give me this feeling – the snow was a challenge. I looked forward to the extra work of walking through snow and climbing over the snowbanks to get on the bus. It was work with a purpose, that left me tired, perhaps, but with a sense of accomplishment.

Now snow is imprisoning, frightening, dangerous. I try to figure out ways to avoid it. Walking in snow is a muscle-wrenching, mind-numbing balancing exercise, like walking across a glacier. Wheeling in snow is a frustrating exercise in lack of access.

I miss shovelling snow.

Katja

2 Comments

  1. Patricia Tryon

    Yes.

    Reply
  2. jessica

    how could u be afraid of snow? my school won’t let us make snowballs higher hen our knees. they won’t let us through snowballs. that’s like taking the snow away from us.

    Reply

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